This,that,and everything in between.

Wow. It's been almost 2 months already? So much for "I'll be updating this everyday". To my defense, I have been busy? Not really. I would really say the opposite of that. Shortly after my first entry, I pretty much just stopped working out. Why? Because I am lazy. At this stage of the year, I will be completely shocked that come August 29 I'll be any sort of physical or mental condition to compete in a triathlon. For whatever reason, I just cannot get motivated to take this seriously(much like many aspects of my life over the years, but we'll get to that in a moment). And on top of that, I can't get motivated to write this blog. I enjoy writing the blog, and I enjoy working out(once I am up and out of the house, not at 430am when the alarm goes off). So I guess some may say I have a bit of a motivation problem. I am trying to work through it, and this is the first step. I feel if I can plow through this then hopefully I can have some sort of renewed spirit toward this whole disaster that I blindly dove into.
In the meantime, let's play a little bit of catch up from the last 2 or so months. I may be all over the place from here on out so bear with me(or is it bare?) Where to start? Hmmm. Let's see, on March 8Th I turned 27. Yes, 27 years old. Unreal. If at the age of 17 someone would have told me that in 10 years my life would resemble that of mine today(with exception to Kelly), I would have told them to throw me in a wood chipper. For example, today a girl at work was describing somebody that she had thought was a pedophile, her description is as follows: Bald(check), overweight(check),glasses(check), and an overall shitty/negative disposition(check). So to recap, you know what, never mind. It's pretty self explanatory. Like I said, wood chipper.
Next up was a few weeks of bs at work. And then it was on to Vegas. I can sum the trip up in 3 words: ASS GOT Rocked. The casinos were not gentle. But hey, it was a vacation, it was fun, and I had a week off of work, so I really can't complain. Since Vegas, it has been nothing but a boatload of bullshit. Mostly work related. At some point between Vegas and last week, Kelly and I had a conversation and decided that I needed to make a drastic all or nothing kind of change in my life. I still have no idea what that change should be(Yes, the change could be getting my rather bulbous ass in gear and start/re-start training for the triathlon, but I don't think something like that is on par with just packing my shit and moving cross country all willy-nilly with no plans or purpose). So in the meantime I will be keeping my eyes open for some sort of sign that a chance is needing to be taken. What can I say? I get in ruts, every 9 months or so, I begin to hate my job, and like 99% of the people in it. My mood changes, I change the way I act towards people(both friends and strangers alike) and I am generally pretty unhappy until I move on to the next shitty job that pays me $.50 more an hour, and I trick myself into thinking that this is going to be it, and it never is. I've been doing it since I was 19, and unfortunately, I don't know how to stop it. It scares the shit out of me. It's no way to live a life, and if I am not careful I am going to wake up one day in a studio apartment, alone with nothing but empty bottles of coke, ramen noodles and my pampered chef microwaveable pot. So I guess what I am saying is a change is going to have to come soon, because as stated above, I am not getting any younger, and the last time I checked(which is multiple times a day) I am by far the at the bottom of the success totem pole of both my friends, and people that I graduated high school with.
So, what do I do until greatness strikes me? Not sure, but I think the first step is going to be to get my rear in gear(poetry)and start training and eating correctly for this triathlon. As far as I can remember, I have never really accomplished anything(high school doesn't count). Pretty much everything I do, I do half assed and end up either not being good at it or quitting because I am too lazy, or not patient enough to see it through to the end. This is something I have to see through to the end. I have to show myself that it is possible that I can finish something and not just quite when it's convenient for me.
From here on out(or at least 3 times a week) I will keep you guys updated on what's going on with everything. Training,my mental state of mind, how badly I hate my current job(or how much I love my new one(when the time comes)). Hopefully this blog and the triathlon are two things that I can finish, because I need to start somewhere.